September Punya Entri

This year punya raya takde photoshoot session. Semua pun malas, And sista-sista pun balik dari kampung husband masing-masing tak sama hari. Sorang balik hari ni, sorang balik esok. So kitorang pun semacam dah malas. And trust me, this year punya raya adalah raya yang paling malas sangat nak keluar. For me lah. Except nak pergi rumah pakcik-makcik lah. Ritual family.

Sometimes, nak sangat being heartless. Less punya heartless. So bukan nak minta simpati or buka keburukan orang lain or apa-apa je lah. Tapi kalau dibiarkan bergantung tak bertali, munasabah ke tuh? Bukan ke everyone deserve an explaination untuk setiap apa yang diorang diperlakukan. Oke, ayat macam dah tunggang-langgang. Tapi geram rasa, I just can say, go to hell lah you, H. Itu yang orang kata, baik tak semestinya baik kan? So, theory instinct he's the one memang tak boleh pakai. I don't care if people wanna say, jangan macam tu, entah-entah ada penjelasan dia. So what? Where's the explaination? Coward lah macam tu. Even my ikan paus pun berani. I salute you lah my ikan paus. Make such a drastic solution yet it's for our happiness. True. Without ikan paus, I don't need to cry everyday anymore. Don't need to put any hope yang only 0.02% je boleh achieve. So, without him now, boleh move on with new life. But when I met this guy, heh. Baik sangat, contra with the previous previous one, so try lah untuk accept. Tapi in the end, end up macam hampagas jugak. Actually just got news, he wasn't in Singapore this raya. Means dia balik KL! See. Liar, is it? Geram yang amat ok. Why why why? I am a puppet meyhh? So, boleh buat sesuka hati, is it? Patutnya kenalah macam ni, who cares? It's over, right? Kan? Tapi still punya hatilah.

Tired tired tired. Tapi tak pernah serik, kan? So, that's what I am. Luckily, I have this children with me. So, kurang rasa layan perasaan yang takkan berbaloi-baloi. Orang perempuan memang macam tu kan? Bazirkan airmata untuk benda yang tak guna je. Aihhh. Perempuan perempuan.